Mavin Records signee, Crayon has shared how he dealt with mental health issues early in his career.
The singer revealed that life in the Nigerian music industry is extremely difficult and that it’s not for the weak of heart in an approximately fifteen-minute chat with well-known YouTuber Korty.
According to him, there was a moment in his career when he got hooked to drugs, confessing that he went all in line with narcotics, consuming all sorts of it, including Codeine and Marijuana.
Even if the drugs contributed to his mental health being exploited, having to release six songs in a row without any impactful outcome made matters worse.
He described how things got so bad that he went barefoot to Mavin Record Label’s house and acted strange. Fortunately, no one saw the exhausting moment that he slammed his phone on the ground and admitted he wanted to stop singing. From his account, it was all a mess.
But Rema turned out to be the essential artist who got him through that trying time.
He came to the conclusion that his mental state was so unstable that, despite being taken to the psychiatrist’s facility, he would have preferred to leap from a moving car.
According to Crayon:
“If you’re an artiste, and you want to come into the industry, omo, if you know say you no get strong mental health, no enter o!”
“You know, I came out in 2019. Dropped my first EP, and then like in 2020, I dropped like six songs that didn’t blow at all. It started messing with me mentally. Doubting myself in so many ways. Me going to Jazzy crying like “what’s going on? Am I cursed?”
“I was always by myself. I used to do Tramadol, I used to do Codeine. I used to Emzolyn. I used to do Refinol. And I used to do Skuchies. Skuchies is like the combination of weed, tramadol, codeine, refinol, everything in one. I stopped when it almost killed my guy and my guy took tramadol without eating, like 700mg. Almost died. So I called my friends like omo, we need to stop this thing.”
“One day, we went to a beach house party and we were just vibing and chilling, and then I started reacting somehow. And then my manager saw me and was like “guy, wetin dey worry you? You take anything?” I said “no, only weed” because I was acting out crazy. So immediately, I came back home and started Facetiming Rema like “how far bro.”
All of a sudden, I started walking on the streets. I just dey waka dey go. I walked down to Mavin Studios barefooted. I got to the gate, and I sat down on the floor and was like “omo, I don tire mehn.”
I took off my shirt, I took my iPhone, I smashed it on the ground. And then, calls started flying. I think Rema called BabyFresh and everybody started shouting “Crayon, what are you doing there?” I said I’m just really tired. Rema drove down, scattered everywhere, shouting “where my brother dey?” I was literally lying down in Rema’s lap.”
“It was bad. Car dey move, I would want to jump out of the car. It was that crazy. I couldn’t talk. I literally lost my mind. Fighting wars that nobody can see, only you. So they took me to one of the psychiatric hospitals here in Lekki. It was deep.”